my heart is sad...

last week we got the latest update on our sweet boy. it was our first update from the baby home since we got the referral which was back in July....thankfully, we have had a few different friends go over and spend some time with him so we have had a few other updates as well but this one really wrecked me. because of what others had said before, we knew that he was alone often times throughout the day and that the other boys often picked on him (all normal things for little boys living together in one baby home but still...) and take away his toys, books, etc....but to hear it directly from the home was difficult. i am thankful they were/are honest about how life is and how our sweet boy is doing. we wouldn't want it any other way and now we know how to pray more specifically...

the normal updates were wonderful::
*he can now walk without tripping (oh how i wish i had seen his first steps!)
*he eats well and enjoys all kinds of food (he will fit in perfectly!)
*he responds to aunties when they call him (an answer to prayer as we thought he may have endured some hearing loss!!)
*he knows how to use potty (YES!)  
*has gained weight and height (amen!! he is still itty but growing is wonderful!)

this was the hard part to read::

"he likes to play alone sometimes" 

and this....

"he likes aunties attention" 

and this...

"he is always bullied by the older boys who take away his play items" 

these words break this momma's heart. 

i am tearing up as i write this because i want to be with him so badly. 

i so badly want to protect him. and love him. and hold him..

with all of my being i want to be there. 

not here. 

but God has said to *stay* 

and so i will stay (for now;)

and pray like crazy!

::Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go::   joshua 1:9