bitter sweet

this week has been filled with so many highs, it is hard to describe. i actually don't know if there are words to describe how blessed we feel. since last friday, we have been flooded with info on our sweet babyu. God has been working throughout our whole process but in the last week, we have been amazed by the story He has been painting.

seriously. unbelievable. 

i will share more later but know that we have been blessed by all of the encouraging emails, texts, comments and calls from you...thank you for rejoicing with us as we learn more and more about our boy!

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on a different note..tonight has been hard (odd, huh?). such a mix of emotions. earlier, i was going through the clothes o-boy has out grown, setting some aside to send to babyu and getting ready for when we return home from Africa. i am not sure what set it off but what started out as a fun filled task turned into a sad, sad event. maybe it is because i was remembering all the good times we had with o when he was itty, knowing that we won't get that time with babyu. or maybe it was that there are so many clothes that babyu will not fit into. because he is 15 months (+ or - ;). there is a lot of life we have missed out on. and while we are so thrilled with all the info we are gathering....completely and utterly in awe of what God is revealing about our amazing love story, we are sad that we have missed so much of babyu's life. 

we don't have a travel date yet. we are praying that we are on a plane before christmas but with international adoption, you just. never. know. we do trust in God's timing. Please. if our homestudy hadn't been lost for a month, we wouldn't be matched with sweet babyu. if ... if.... if.....then we wouldn't have sweet pics of our precious african babe... God is in control and He is the author of the journey we are on.

we trust this with our whole beings.

we find refuge in this knowledge.

but sometimes, i get selfish and i think i know what is best for us. God loves babyu so much more than we do. so much more than we could ever fathom...we love him soooo much that it is hard to imagine.

trying to rest in the love and peace of our Lord because when we do, it makes all of this a little easier to handle.