two weeks ago...

on July 19th, WE GOT OUR REFERRAL!!! And accepted within an hour an a half. What a good day!!

We are filled with so much joy as we celebrate this sweet news! {"like cold water to a weary soul, so is good news from a distant land." ps 25:25}


He (yes, a boy!! Brothers!!!) is so precious! Oh. my. goodness. Such a sweet smile grin, itty hands and beautiful, huge, brown eyes. I have always wanted a brown eyed boy just like A. We seriously can't get over him. O-boy and B-boy (babyu) will be 17 months apart. How. perfect. is. that!?!?! I love it! 


Buddies. Best friends. Sweet, sweet boys!


Many have asked why I haven't blogged until now. 


Good question. 


I am still trying to process everything and quite honestly, I just wasn't ready and I still can't fully articulate my feelings over the past two weeks. While adoption is such a blessing there is much tragedy involved because of loss and uncertainties. We have missed out on so much of babyu's life thus far. He is over a year old and we only have a couple of details about his past which are really hard to swallow. We don't have a whole lot to cherish (YET!). We do have a little info and some pictures...we are receiving more as the days go by from very kind people who have visited him over the past few months (priceless!). We do cherish what we have and are so thankful for what we know but I think I just needed to sit with the news (don't get me wrong, I did make a lot of calls:). 


I needed to enjoy it, celebrate and rejoice in the news of this oh-so-precious, little one that God has chosen to be in our family. After O-boy was born, I didn't want a lot of visitors- partly due to the fact that I went through the ringer in the hospital and partly because I just wanted to relish in the blessing that we had just received. I suppose July 19 was a little like a birth. The more I think about this, the more I believe it. We had been waiting to see a picture...waiting to meet this sweet bean...waiting to know who would join our family next. Waiting to see who God had created....Who we have prayed for, loved and longed for...and after few short minutes, we knew (and a few phone calls but that is a different story:)


Getting the call was surreal. To see his beautiful face was an amazing moment (A and I were on the phone, separated by two states. But that is yet another story:). To read the three brief sentences about his personality was enlightening and to read about what he has endured was painful. So many mixed emotions but so thankful. So thankful. 


So, so thankful.


My eyes are welling up with tears as I think back to that day. Such a gift. One that will forever be ingrained in my heart, soul and mind. 

*so much joy*

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17