not about me

this life is not about me. not about my wants. not about my own agenda. and certainly not about my timeline. i have been so convicted about this the past few days. i want to live for others. i want to love others above myself and sometimes that means getting over myself. i have many blogs that i follow and feel so encouraged by the women i "follow" :)

i read this one at the beginning of this week from goodtobecrazy.blogspot.com and it struck a cord...

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I spent a lot of time lying awake last night. My baby, who is normally a great sleeper, started crying around 2:30am. She promptly put her little self right back to sleep but her cry had jolted me wide awake and I found myself lying in bed having the following conversation with the Lord...

Me: "Lord, please help me go back to sleep." 5 minutes go by. "Lord, please." 30 minutes go by. "Lord, PLEASE!!!" I have to get back to sleep. I will be exhausted tomorrow. My husband is in Uganda for crying out loud and I have two young children and a baby to take care of alone. Furthermore, I have all kinds of stuff to do tomorrow... I have to take my 4 year old to gymnastics, I have to drive afternoon carpool for Madeline, I even need to give Davis a couple of breathing treatments because he sounds congested. With all of these overwhelming tasks on my plate Lord, could you please, please help me out here??"

Lord: "Shelly, let me ask you a few questions... First, are you comfortable right now?"
Me: "I guess so. I wish I wasn't awake at 3:15am but I am laying on a $5000 tempurpedic mattress and covered by some cozy sheets and blankets."

Lord: "You said you have a lot to do tomorrow. How much of it did I ordain? Did I specifically call you to sign your 4 year old up for a gymnastics class?"
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(go here to read the rest!)
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i want to acknowledge that my days are ordained by god. i want to live for him and not by my own agenda. i want my kids to realize that we are not supposed to be comfortable in this life because it isn't forever. i want them to learn this from me...by my example. and that would mean that i need to get over myself. this life is not about me.